To Paul

Paul,

Everyday I watch you grow with such amazement. I can’t believe your dad and I created something so beautiful. You are the hardest most rewarding job I have ever had. I don’t know if it is even a job…it’s a privilege. I am privileged to be your mommy. Everyday I pray for you. I pray that you will be a respectable, loving, intelligent, sincere, empathetic, courageous, thoughtful, God loving man. I pray that I will teach you to treat others kindly and to always stand up for what you believe in.

I love you more than anything in this whole world. A parents love is something I can’t describe. It’s a deeper more passionate love. It’s a love I’ve never experienced before. You will understand someday when you have your own children.

I love that the moment you were born you recognized my voice. I love having such a connection with you. Although sometimes it is tiring I love feeling so needed. I hope that I raise you to be an independent man but I hope that you always make me feel needed in some way.

You are my heart and soul!

Love,
Mommy

A Pirates Life for Me!

My pirate name is:

Iron Mary Bonney

A pirate's life isn't easy; it takes a tough person. That's okay with you, though, since you a tough person. You can be a little bit unpredictable, but a pirate's life is far from full of certainties, so that fits in pretty well. Arr!

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Wish you were here

Well, it's offical. The graduated seniors that were in the youth group are starting college. I miss them. They feel like extended family members. Little brothers and sisters. For them I have this quote:

"You'll get mixed up, of course,
as you already know.
You'll get mixed up
with many strange birds as you go.
So be sure when you step.
Step with care and great tact
and remeber that Life's
a Great Balancing Act.
Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.
And never mix up your right foot with your left.

And you will succeed?
Yes! You will indeed!
(98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
KID YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...
be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray
or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,
you're off to Great Places!
Today is your day!
Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!"

-Oh the Places You'll Go, Dr. Seuss

Blessed

Thank you Lord!

Mommyville

Things I have learned in my first few weeks of being a mom:

1. Little boys can not be trusted.

2. Babies can pee as much as grown ups. Pee can fly across a room.

3. If I cup my hands together it makes a great pee catcher.

4. There is such a thing as a poop volcano.

5. While being a mom you never reach a sound sleep. Any little noise makes your mom-dar go off.

6. You will do ANYTHING when it comes to your baby.

7. It's ok to ask for help.

8. You can pray several times a day for someone other than yourself.

9. Sleep is overrated.

10. There is such a thing as love at first sight.

Emmaus

Last weekend I took my journey to Emmaus. For those of you are not sure what Emmaus means you can look up a brief description here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emmaus_Walk

There are so many stories I wish I could share but I can't. I can't because if anyone reading this would want to experience it and I told about my experience it would ruin things. I can say that what I experienced last weekend is almost unexplainable. I've waited a week and I'm still not sure I have the words for it. I'm not sure I'll ever find the words.

I know that since last weekend God has been working on my heart tremendously. I don't feel like the same person and I certainly hope that I am not. However, I think this is going to be a process. Almost a cleansing process of my heart.

I thought I knew how a Christian should act, dress, pray, ect... little did I know I had no idea the heart of Jesus. I had it all wrong. There are many people I wish I could go back and apologize to for the way I acted and for the views I so strongly fought. I had no idea how stubborn I was being or how wrong I was. I felt an overwhelming love by other Christians last weekend. I felt the overwhelming love of God and Jesus and I can only say I strive to be more like that. I actually truly and undoubtedly have a knew passion in my heart...to truly and tenderheartedly love others.

"I might believe in the Redeemer if His followers looked more Redeemed."
-Fredrick Nietczshe

My prayer is that Jesus helps me everyday to be more and more like him. I am far far away from perfect. I will never be perfect. I am just merely striving to have a closer relationship, a stronger faith, and a better heart.

Update

So I haven't blogged in awhile and thought I'd give it a shot again. I'm not sure if anyone really follows my blog but for those of you who might here is an update.

1. I'm glad for the green on the trees, the flowers in the ground, and that it is finally starting to warm up outside.

2. For those of you that don't know...Brian and I moved so things have been kinda crazy for us lately.

3. I'm trying to take down wallpaper so Brian can paint the nursery (the nursery will have a monkey theme).

4. I am in my 3rd trimester of pregnancy. I really enjoy the pregnancy but can't wait for the conversation to be off of the size of my stomach. lol! We are 97% we are going to name the baby Paul. We do not have a middle name picked out yet. And finally, yes I'm nervous about getting him home but can't wait to have him here!

5. I'm really enjoying Monday night small group at the church. If you aren't going you are missing out on some good discussion.

6. I am really enjoying the youth group. I am so sad about the seniors graduating this coming Sunday. I'm so attached. I don't even think most of them know how much I love them and how proud I am of them. They are such a special group of kids!

So, that's a quick update. I hope everyone is enjoying the weather!