ABC's of Me

A= Available~ No I've been married 3 years.
B= Best Friend~ God, Brian, Lori, Julie, Sherrie.
C= Cake or pie~ Both.
D= Drink of choice~ Milk.
E= Essential item you use everyday~ Computer.
F= Favorite color~ Purple, blues, and hot pinks.
G= Gummy bears or worms~ sour worms or sour patch kids
H= Hometown~ Waverly
I= Indulgences~ Chocolate and getting my hair done.
J= January or February~ Feb. Brian's birthday and Valentines Day.
K= Kids and Names~ We have a baby on the way! No certain names yet.
L= Life is incomplete without?~ Love, Faith, Hope, and Trust.
M= Marriage date~ Oct. 9, 2004.
N= Number of siblings~ 2 brothers 1 sister.
O= Oranges or apples~ Oranges.
P= Phobias or Fears~ Losing the ones I love.
Q= Favorite Quotes~
I don't know why others do not see their faults. I would if I had any. (Regarding judging others).
-In Loving Memory of my Mother, Judy Kempton

Be who you are and say what you feel because those that mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
-Dr. Seuss

Each one of them is Jesus in disguise.
-Mother Teresa

R= Reason to smile~ Becoming a mommy!
S= Season~ Spring. I love to see the rebirth and birth of things.
T= Tag 3 or 4 people~ Ummm...just play if you want to.
U= Unknown fact about me~ I play World of Warcraft.
V= Vegetable you don't like~ peas.
W= Worst habit~ slouching and biting my nails.
X= X-rays~ just one I sprang my ankle.
Y= Your favorite food~ doritos with melted cheese.
Z= Zodiac Sign~ Sag.

I know what Chillicothe needs

Where is the Barnes and Nobel? That's what Chillicothe needs not another restaurant! I love bookstores and yet Chillicothe owns no massive bookstores. I would start a petition but who is going to listen? Ahhh...story of my life lol!

Sunday's Message & Mondays Ramblings

Some of this post is from Steve's message on Sunday. It was a good message for me. It made me think. Other than that you will find a good mixture of Steve's message and rambling. I'm having one of those days today...the kind where your sometimes the bug and I can only hope to be the windshield soon.

Here are some questions that Steve posed on Sunday:

Q: Is your life built on the rocks or on the sand?
A: I did write an answer and then I erased it. I'm not positive I can answer this question right now. My life is not entirely built on rock...this is a constant struggle.

Q: How do I simply live my life so that others want to follow?
A: I try. I try to love my God, I try to be a nice person, I try to be compassionate, I try to be loving, I try to be caring, I try, I try, I try everyday. Hopefully, people will see that trying is enough... you don't HAVE to be perfect to do this thing...to believe in God...to have this Christianity thing down perfect. Just try. Have faith.

These questions were then followed with a quote..."In this life, we cannot do great things; we can only do small things...with great love"-Mother Teresa.
I try to do small things constantly and I try to do this everyday. However, I think maybe if I just do this great thing...I put to much pressure on myself. I think I can hit the Easy button...this one great thing will take care of the rest. Wrong! It won't and it probably won't even feel good. This isn't a rush thing. You can't push fast forward you have to push play. Small things are a life long process...if you do one big thing then you probably aren't doing the small things everyday to love someone daily.

Elemental Faith

*Love one another.
Sometimes this is hard. I love people and I love being around people. But, people sometimes make me feel really down on myself. People have discouraging things to say and people don't appreciate you. I'm a big Words of Affirmation person and this not appreciating thing is really getting to me. I don't want high praise (I don't even deserve it) I just wish people could find more good than bad. And, people probably do find more good than bad we as humans are just not good at giving people compliments. Anyways, there is much more than loving one another than this. Love takes on many different aspects.

*Love your enemies.
This can be hard. What if you truly believe someone has wronged you? What if you think they need to apologize? It's hard to get past it but according to Matthew 5:43-44 it's something I need to strive harder to do. Something I really like that Steve said was that he realized "this will have to come somewhere outside of me." I think that loving our enemies is an extremely hard task and that we just can't do it alone we have to pray about it and rely on God to take care of this for us. This may even mean he wants us to step out of our comfort zone.

* Don't fight back.
This is hard for someone that thinks they have to have the last word.

*Work out your difference.
Another thing Steve said that I liked "I realized I was mad at this guy and that he was renting space in my head for free." lol! I just love that!

*Check your motives.
Sometimes do you every wonder what it was really about in the first place?

Anyways thanks Steve for a great message on Sunday that has entertained my mind enough to write a blog about it!

Ramblings

This 4 day weekend off of work was amazing. Wednesday night started everything off with a bang. Big Wednesday at RVCC was just...indescribable. That's right I can't put any words to it. That is the best I have felt in a long time. I'm not the normal lift your hands type of girl or even one that cries in front of people. I let that go on Wednesday because I...well I just needed to do that for myself. Someone "new" that I was sitting with loved it as well...her comment was "This is great. If people can cheer and get excited at a sporting event they can cheer and get excited at church."

Thanksgiving...this was the first year without my mom. I was dreading Thanksgiving. Really really dreading Thanksgiving (emphasis on really really). Can I add my God is AMAZING here. Yes, I must...insert...MY GOD IS AMAZING. He got me through this holiday....this holiday I really really dreaded. He made this holiday special and I just praise him for that. I think I had my mind set that it wouldn't be good and celebrating Thanksgiving without my mom not here was wrong. It was wrong because I should be sad. God had other plans...praise him he had other plans.

Friday, well I usually get up at the crack of dawn Friday...you know black friday...and go shopping. Not this year I slept and it was good...really really good. I then spent the rest of the day with my sister and then had a youth leader meeting that night. Can I just say how much I like the other youth leaders at RVCC? I mean wow! Our RVCC kids are lucky...Eli, Jenn, Marty, Jenn, Chris, Tesa...they are amazing. I'm so thankful that they are helping me with this goal of mine to become a youth leader. This is really important to me and these people are taking me under their wing without resistance. They are the definition of small things done with great love. I just want to conclude with RVCC.

Alright, I decided RVCC needs it's own paragraph. lol! Again I am thankful for all the people that support me and are helping me reach my goal of becoming a youth leader. Also, I have been attending RVCC for about 4 1/2 years now...since age 18 or 19 and I'll be 24 next month. Anyways, I've always loved RVCC and called it my church and but now it's really "my church" it's "my home church". Lately I have felt so connected to this church and the people that go there. I love our pastor and his family. I love when Steve preaches, I love Jaki's smile, I love Laura Tiu's greetings in the morning, I love a quick chat with Mark Percell, I love the youth leaders, I love Julie P.'s enthusiasm, Jodi & Julie are down to earth, Paula and Shawn White are great to talk to, I love the youth kids, Vicki is amazing and Guy Hause has been around me since jr. high, Marty is amazing at worship, and Anna knows how to choke a sista up every once in awhile with her voice...there are many more people that go to my church that I adore...I love the people that go to my church. They are a group of loving amazing people. I am happy at RVCC. I am blessed at RVCC. I am myself at RVCC.

Anyways, that was a lot of rambling. But, It was good for the soul to blog tonight!

I Be Kinda Smart! Lol!

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Your Thoughts

What do you think about Jesus? Not the church or Christians...just Jesus. What do you think of him?

Describe "your" Jesus to me.

Quizzes can be fun!

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct. It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors. If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs. As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human. And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

The It's Its There Their They're Quiz

I watched a chick flick and I kind of liked it

Alright, I hate to admit it but I watched a chick flick last night on the Lifetime movie channel (or as my brother-in-law and husband call it the man hater channel). When I tell you what movie it was most of you women will gasp in shock (and/or horror) that I haven't seen this movie until now. The movie was Pretty Woman and my favorite quote was this:

"The bad stuff is easier to believe, ever notice that?"

What are your thoughts about this?

This Thing Called Life

Have you ever called somewhere and just wanted to get through to a real person but instead you press all these buttons and get this automated system?

I feel like I do this in life! Press 1 for English. Some people you talk to act like they have no idea what you are talking about when you try to be "real" and you keep pressing 1 for English but they just don't get it.

Press 2 for Customer Service. Urg! I don't want everyone to know my problems. This is personal. I'll wait for the next number!

Press 3 for...then you get this person telling you "if you just pray harder" or "time heals all wounds" or "Jesus loves you anyways"...hmmm...nice but not what I was looking for right now.

Press 4...I am talking to myself at this point right? This line is no help. This line is making me feel angry. I want to talk to a "REAL PERSON"!

Press # for a directory. What? I don't really know who I want to talk to...ummm...just a "REAL PERSON"!!!!

So then all those extra buttons and you finally get through to a real person to talk to. Someone that tells you it's ok to feel the way you are feeling. It makes me feel a little more satisfied and a little more justified.

However, when I hang up I'm going to call someone else...paging God!

Anyways, that was my scenario of the people you run into in your life. And, really you need to talk over your problems with the people nearest and dearest to you (real people) and you need to talk to the one that always gets you...God!

Yes this post is totally random and I am totally tired!

3 YEARS & GOING STRONG!

This blog is being posted a little late. October 9th Brian and I celebrated 3 years of marriage. I am not sure how I got so lucky but I thank God for him all time time! He is so loving, caring, compassionate, giving, kind, sarcastic, humorous, fun, and....well, I could go on and on about him.

Anyone that knows us well knows that we are on opposite sides of the spectrum. Brian has an engineer mind. He is good at math, science, computer work, and all those brainy type things. I am better at literature, history, and I love being artsy fartsy. Brian also has what Marty "Chillicothe" Ford calls "mad fire making skills" and well, I'm not very gifted in that area lol! However, I think that this is what makes us "us" and this is the very reason we get along so well. That and I do enjoy a man that brings me cappuccino = )

Anyways, as you can tell, I've enjoyed the 3 years that I have been married to Brian and I look forward to more!

IF WE ARE THE BODY WHY IS HIS LOVE NOT SHOWING THEM THERE IS A WAY?

The other day (Sunday) I was completely enjoying a day in the park with friends. I was helping a co-worker with a photo shoot of two kids I just adore! A woman came up to me in the park and asked if I had any money, if I could help her in anyway. I told her no that I didn’t have my purse on me. My purse was in the car…which…was not far away from me at all. I brushed it off and continued my nice day in the park with friends. I thought to myself she will probably use the money for drugs or booze. It wasn’t until later (much later, Tuesday actually) that this struck me and I wrestled with it tremendously. I lied to that woman. I could help her!

One time when I was a little girl (about age 10) there was a homeless man sitting by a store entrance in Columbus, Ohio. He was asking for handouts. I thought then to myself he probably wouldn’t use our money for the right cause. I then heard two teenage girls talking. One of the girls gave the man money and the other girl was fussing to her friend about giving the money to him. The girl that gave the money said… “Momma says that they could be angels in disguise.”

Think about that!

Did I just disappoint God by my reaction to this woman in the park? Even greater yet what if she wasn’t an angel? What if she was just an ordinary person that needed my help? I just passed up a chance to tend to the flock! I feel such a heavy burden lying on my shoulders. I feel such a deep disservice.

Why did I choose not to help her? I am surely not to good to tend to my Makers flock. Why didn’t I shove some money into her hand and pray with her? I know someone that can take care of all of her needs. I could have helped!

So this is what I did. I can’t change that I didn’t help that woman. I would have reacted differently if this would have went through my head sooner. Anyways, I prayed that God would tend to her, help her, and fulfill her longings. Then I prayed for me.

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It be National Talk Like a Pirate Day Ye Scallywags! I be thinkin' this image be givin' ye a little entertainment!

WHY AM I AWAKE?

It's 1:36 a.m. I should be in bed. I have to get up at 7:00 a.m. but I am wide awake. I am thinking about everything but sleeping. URG! I hate nights like these. Brian is currently out of town and when he is gone I just can't sleep. Isn't it funny...when you get married it's hard to sleep with that person beside you and then after you have been married awhile it's hard to sleep when they aren't beside you? I hate when he is gone. I miss my best friend :( Also, I can't sleep b/c I have been having this wonderful sinus problem in the evenings. Anyone else with me on the sinus stuff? URG!

I AM BLESSED!

Today Brian and I visited the Creation Museum in Kentucky. I can’t describe it to you because if I tried it wouldn’t do it justice. It’s amazing and too truly know how great it is you have to go yourself! I’m so glad that someone has taken a stand and said here is what “we” believe and like it or not we have made a museum out of it!

I guess I never really challenged science and Evolution. I just figured Evolution was wrong and I had the Bible and that to me was proof enough. Yes, it is proof enough but why? I didn’t know what the Bible really had to say that completely challenged Evolution. This may seem like a dumb post but if you go see the Creation Museum for yourself you will know what I mean by my above statements.

The museum takes you through the 7 C’s: Creation, Corruption, Catastrophe, Confusion, Christ, Cross, Consummation. And, just so you know how amazing this museum is I’ll let you know how long it took us to get through the entire thing…ready? It took us 5 hours! It probably could have taken longer but we didn’t tour the outside grounds!

My favorite part was the Planetarium. Something about the stars, planets, galaxy, all of it just amazes me. But, the best part about the Planetarium is that I sat beside a woman with downs syndrome. The entire time we were in the Planetarium she would say “oohhhhh, wow, how cool, but my favorite was….God you are amazing.”

Thank you God for the blessing I had today sitting beside this woman. She was so innocent, raw, and incredibly in love with and amazed by you! My prayer is that you “open the eyes of my heart!”

Today is really Tuesday? It seems sooo like a Monday!

Wow what a day! Last night I parked at my sister’s house (less than a minutes walk from my house) because our newly paved driveway was still drying. All fine and good except I forgot that I parked my car there, and while I was already running late this morning, I had to walk to my car in the pouring rain (yes, for your information, I couldn’t find an umbrella). Ok whatever, I didn’t like my clothes and makeup this morning anyways…so a little rain? Not that big of a deal…kinda sorta…I’m just telling myself this so I don’t get upset.

Alright, so I’m in my car and I’m singing, praying, and thinking…thinking about everything else but driving…big opps! I about caused a major accident today. Dang it! I get so mad at myself I should have been paying attention! The guy in the other car is flipping me off and making smacking motions in the air like he would have really like to tear my head off and I’m saying sorry like an idiot. He probably can’t understand me, and he certainly can’t hear me. I’m just glad I’m not dead (thank you God)!

Alright I’m working…going well…interruptions…what? Interruptions? I can’t deal with this today. Why? I don’t know. I’m telling myself…multitask Sarah it’s not hard. It’s lunch time now…I’m going to work lunch and I feel good about that. I can get my work done…great! So I’m driving through the Wendy’s and I’m thinking about what needs done when I get back to work…I look down…are you kiddin’ me? I have a giant hole in the crotch of my pants! URRRGGG! Who needs a hole in the crotch of their pants on a day like this? Ok I have a long shirt on and I have a safety pin at work…I can deal with this. I still don’t like it but I can improvise.

Well, the evening went well…I had a lil’ comic relief with my wonderful co-worker Erica. I thank God that I get to work with her. I didn’t used too I used to try to compete with her but now I just love her! She keeps my sanity! I love laughing with her…now my day is good!

But, I’m trying to figure out the issue at hand…what’s got my mind so on everything else? I need to find the heart of this problem. What is it that is truly distracting me?

Letting Go Is The Hardest Thing

I am overwhelmed by this house today. Everything reminds me of her. I feel as if I can almost hear her laugh today. I miss my mom a lot today.

Her clothes are still in her closet just the way she always had them.
She liked things with “personality” so there are a lot of little whimsical things around the house.
Everything is pretty much the way she left it.

Maybe today is a good day for a drive : )

Trust...Just Another 5 Letter Word...

Why are the easiest words in the English language so hard to wrap your mind around? Trust. Love. Hope. Grace. Faith. Truth. Hate. Hurt. Think it is easy? Take your definition of hope. A new mother getting a wonderful ultrasound saying everything is fine? That’s a sign of hope. Now say you just got kicked off of a transplant list, your only hope of survival. Hope is diminished. Hate. I two year old hates taking a bath or you hate someone that has hurt you deeply. Love. I love my husband…now what if you are recently divorced? Or what if you don’t talk to your family? You may have a different explanation of love.

All of that to bring me to this word…TRUST. Why is it so hard to trust another person? Which do you believe… people are generally bad but make some good choices in life OR people are generally good but make bad choices in life? Do people generally lie or do people sometimes lie withdrawing your trust in them? What is the definition of trust in your mind?

Back to the first question…Why is it so hard to trust another person? I don’t know the answer. I generally don’t trust people. This isn’t something I like about myself. Why don’t I trust people? I guess I’ve been let down too many times. Is it smart not too trust people right out of the gates? Are you supposed to trust them until they give you a reason not too?

Here is what I do not trust. I won’t trust someone that generally talks a lot about other people. If you talk about everyone in town how am I supposed to believe that you won’t turn around and talk about me to everyone else?

I do not trust people that “throw me or others under the bus” so to speak. If you try to make yourself look better by putting someone else down (especially in front of other people) then I generally will not trust you.

Another thing I do not trust… I don’t trust when you confine in someone about something that aggravates you and then they in turn tell someone else. Like “Hey Sarah, come here, you got to hear this…this just happened to Veronica….and it’s so funny because I was just telling her the same thing happened to you”. Haha…yeah…great thank you for that (and in your mind you are smashing your head against a wall).

I don’t trust people that are always negative. Will everything I say to them turn into something negative?

I think my biggest fear with trust is that it will turn into judgment. If I peel back the layers of who I really am will you run and tell your friends what a lunatic I am?

And all of this leads me to this…good friends are hard to find. I have only a few people that really know all the dirt on me and have not told another person and, frankly they really don’t care because they love me so much it doesn’t matter. And, I’m so thankful for a forgiving God…because without him…well, what kind of life would that be?

Today

Lucifer,

Today was a great! Today I went to church and grew closer to God. Today I discovered a little more about myself. Today I feel alive!

I drove with my husband with no destination in mind. We went everywhere and it was wonderful. The day was perfect and sunny. The weather God provided was great. The grass and trees were green and the sky was a wonderful blue.

Today I spent time with the Youth Group. I even went down the slip-n-slide a couple of times. I let my guard down today and let a few new people into my life.

The day ended with Christian songs around a campfire.

Today you failed again.

-Sarah

One Big Dysfunctional Family

My job makes me laugh! I love the people I work with. It truly is one big dysfunctional family. We all have different attitudes, quirks, and different sinces of humor…yet…somehow we mesh. I love randomness!

I Don't Believe You Anymore!

Dearest Lucifer,

Here I am! I am here face to face and heart to heart. I have something that I have to tell you. For years I let you try to dominate me. For years I let you whisper your seductive lies into my ears. I let you tell me I was stupid, ugly, worthless, a bad Christian, a bad wife, daughter, sister, aunt, and friend. I let you belittle me. I let you tell me lies and I even believed you.

You told me that the trials in life that I faced were because I deserved it. I deserved them all because I was a bad Christian and I had it coming.

You told me I couldn’t help with the youth group. You told me I couldn’t do it because I would fail. I have only met with them once but I already know you are wrong!

You told me not to take on the job I have now. You told me I would fail. I would be too stupid to handle it. You were wrong!

You told me that I couldn’t stay married. It would be too hard to stay married at my young age. That the first year would be so hard I would want to quit. I have been married almost 3 years! You were wrong!

You told me I couldn’t move in with my mom and dad and take care of them. I have! When my mom passed away you told me it was my fault! I could have helped her more! I didn’t do enough! You were wrong!

You told me I will never be loved. I am loved by my husband, my family, my friends, my church…again…you were wrong!

You bound me in chains and took the key to the lock. I believed you and you held me captive for a long time. Finally, I have trusted in the Lord and he has broken your deadly chains!

Get out! We are over! I fully belong to God now! I don’t need you! Goodbye!

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Lifting the Veil!

Here I am writing my first blog. Something I thought I would never do. Why? Because I don’t know if I trust you. I might unleash some part of me that you don’t like. I might be too honest. I might be too blunt. I may say something you don’t agree with. I may just cause you to judge me! Anyways, here I am! I am smart, funny, displeased with my self, I worry what you think, I don’t read my bible as often as I should, I might contradict myself, I will value your opinions, for more of who I am read these lyrics below….

She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child
But she's always a woman to me

She can lead you to love
She can take you or leave you
She can ask for the truth
But she'll never believe "you"
And she'll take what you give her, as long as it's free
Yeah, she steals like a thief
But she's always a woman to me

CHORUS
Oh-she takes care of herself
She can wait if she wants
She's ahead of her time
Oh-and she never gives out
And she never gives in
She just changes her mind

And she'll promise you more
Than the Garden of Eden
Then she'll carelessly cut you
And laugh while you're bleedin'
But she'll bring out the best and the worst you can be
Blame it all on yourself
Cause she's always a woman to me

CHORUS
She is frequently kind
And she's suddenly cruel
She can do as she pleases
She's nobody's fool
But she can't be convicted
She's earned her degree
And the most she will do
Is throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me-Billy Joel/She's Always a Woman to Me

I just lifted my veil and now that you know who I am will you still love me anyways?
“ make this your common practice : confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you can live together whole and healed...” - james 5:16